"Hand Picked"

Oh, my heart . . . I can't seem to take my eyes off of vulnerable, waiting children, children who need a family, children with broken hearts. These children are a world away, yet so near to my heart. I know that the God of the universe sees each one, and He knows them by name. I was recently pondering how long our dear, sweet Lindy waited for us. She had just turned 5 years old at the time of her adoption. We are extremely fortunate to have numerous pictures of her from the time she was a baby until the time she joined our family. I was simply scrolling through the pictures grieving at how much of her little life we missed. I came across a picture of her as a baby wearing a shirt inscribed with these words, "hand picked".

It was just so precious to realize that God knew exactly what He was doing when He hand picked her for us. Our family gets to be a part of God's sovereign plan for Lindy's life . . . that is amazing! When I see her as a baby, I feel sadness at not be the one holding her, taking care of her, and loving her. Yet I am so thankful that someone was there to hold her and care for her while she waited.

I am sad that she went through two major open heart surgeries without us. She was born with tetralogy of fallot as well as spina bifida. She endured pain and suffering without her family by her side. But these surgeries, they saved her life! God was with her, and He had a plan! Oh, my heart . . . these eyes looking right into mine saying "Mama, come and get me."

God gave her an angel of mercy to be there to care for her, filling the need the best she could.

It was just after this picture of her leaving the hospital after heart surgery number two that we first saw her face . . . and we knew. This girl was "hand picked" for us by our heavenly Father to be our daughter.

Lindy's story is one of healing, redemption, grace, and love. However, it didn't begin without brokenness, pain, and loss. Our faithful, loving, and good God makes all things beautiful in His perfect timing.

February is "heart" month. I have been reading story after story about precious heart babies at 28daysofhearts.blogspot.com. Not only has Lindy had surgery on her heart, but I have too. My heart has soared with joy for the little ones who have loving families by their sides, and my heart has been broken for all of the precious "warrior" children waiting to be picked. They are fighting battles with strength and bravery beyond their years.

When we entered into the world of adoption, like so many others, we wanted a "healthy" child. However, our eyes were opened to the countless children who waited for a family because they weren't "perfect". Each one is just like every human being who walks this planet - imperfect, broken, hurting, and in need of a Savior. Only One is perfect, Christ alone is the Savior! Jesus came to seek, love, heal, and save His broken, imperfect people. He hand picked us to be His children.

"He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before Him. In love He predestined us for adoption as sons and daughters through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of His will." Ephesians 1:4-5

There are just so many spiritual parallels with adoption. We are not the saviors, but we can be His hands and feet. We can point His precious ones to their one and only Savior! Choosing a child who is medically, emotionally, and mentally fragile is scary. Knowing that it will be hard, painful, and exhausting and that the outcome may not seemingly end the way we want is daunting. Our human instincts are to protect and ward off hurt. But I know that God does His absolute best work through pain. It's when we need Him most that we truly cling to Him, and He receives the most glory. The privilege we have to point little hearts to Jesus is one beyond compare no matter how much time we have.

Our children are currently doing very well, and they are all happy and healthy. Lindy's heart is functioning beautifully, and she currently has no limitations. Like many children with repaired TOF, her pulmonary valve has a mild leak. She will most likely need intervention in the future, and we trust the Lord with that. When she joined our family her heart had already been repaired in China, and that was a huge blessing. To adopt a child who is labeled "terminal" or "inoperable" is a completely different diagnosis. It usually receives a "no thank you". I am wrestling with this one myself. To adopt a child who may not live a long life on this earth feels so sad and painful. Then I remember that we are all "terminal", and none of us knows how many days we have. But we do know that we will have all of eternity to spend in the arms of our Savior. We have HOPE which is the remedy for pain and loss. To share that HOPE with another is the greatest gift we could ever give. It is the gift that we have received through Christ.

I don't know exactly what the future holds for our family, but I know that I want my heart to remain open to whatever the Lord may have in store. Thank you, Lord, for this "hand picked" beautiful gift!

 

"See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that in heaven their angels always see the face of My Father who is in heaven." "So it is not the will of my Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish." Matthew 18:10-11,14

 

"For the Son of Man came to seek and to save the lost." Luke 19:10

*Update . . . we are adopting again! A little heart warrior! Exactly 8 months from when I wrote this post our application was accepted to adopt another little "hand picked" flower!